i have decided to stop liking bo geng. liking someone at 15 is... sweet but becomes seriously seriously tiring. it wears you out. the constant irreversible thoughts about him, and looking forward to seeing him. so darn tiring. and my life is in a mess because of it.
the only reason i decided to continue liking him was that i believed there was this small chance he would someday, SOMEDAY, fall for me. obviously not now. so i'm basing my decision on the last convo we had. and i can clearly, clearly tell he knows i like him but he's trying to tell me he doesn't like me. clearly. well actually not. maybe i'm just being oversensitive. but i don't enjoy talking to him that much actually.
ah who am i kidding, i do enjoy talking to him. friend or crush. he's entertaining to talk to.
BUT. i am going to abstain myself from this torture. from now on. credits go to cristy for being a tad inspirational. and i've decided to regain my normal life of actually doing homework and practising the piano.
no more nights spent waiting for him to talk to me or wondering whether or not i should talk to him OR just talking to him about nothing at all. i need to do well in sec 3. i have to get over this jerk. well fine, he's not a jerk. i have to get over this guy.
maybe when i actually find some guy better i might. but for now, goodbye crushes. i hope this lasts.
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